sighhhh. i have turned to a life of crime. the lack of security in macy's is just too tempting though. i blame it on the economy and my overdrawn bank account =]
wats up guys?! long timee noo posttt. i honestly have nothinng to talk about. 

well there is the fact that  vincent told me he loved me even though he has a wife and kid. and iii made the mistake of telling him im not QUITE over him just yet even though its been basically a year. i blame it on my lack of love life :) i feel as though i made a total ass out of myself though as i think about what i said to him and how intense it was. it probably stroked his ego a hell of a lot though. according to him he "wants me in his life." for what? so i can sit back and watch him play daddy? ummm nothankskbye.

i also stopped talking to richie. i guess i was kind of mean about it. i basically told him i was tired of "hanging out" at his dad apartment just so he could feel me up and call it a day. ive gone out with this guy a total offf... twice? in the past two and half years ive known him? and when i say out i dont even mean a date. i mean he had to do something and i went with him and he bought me lunch type of deal. his excuse for the past year already has been i have no money. ::NEWSFLASH:: it doesnt HAVE to cost money to take a girl out on a date. ever heard of a beach? a park? we live in nyc for christs sake and hes trying to tell me he cant find anything to do for free. pshhhh. so i told him since money was such a big issue i wont be seeing him next until he actually took me out. and since then i havent heard much from him. i guess he got offended? or maybe he thinks im not worth the effort? shrug!

but ENOUGH about these silly silly boys.
i get to go sailing tomorrow guys! it pays to have friends who know important people! that = free stuff! which is always okay in my book.

still no cosigner and school is looming near. will danielle be staying in nyc for school? only timeee shall tell! it would suck to have to drop out of phi gamma though. not to MENTION to have to give up my oppurtunity to represent my school in the advertising competition.
ive been stressing about it. but now theres this quiet calm i have about everything. even the fact that my bills are piling up! or maybe the quiet calm is masking the gut wrenching stomach nerves that ive been living with for the past month. hmmm

i also really wanna see david cook at bryant park on wednesday but i dotn know if i can make it. i have to try though! what if we meet and he falls in love with me and he gets to be my hubby?? it could happen right?

so since im hungry and this post is going nowhere fast i shall stop! im off to eat, read your journals and FINALLY MAKE A TWITTER!
if u want me to follow u just comment me ur twitter url !

ciao bellas!

have NOT been on lj in a while. ive been keeping myself nice and busy with bullshit and other things. chillen with the friendsss and thats about IT. its possible for to chill with friends all the time becauseee.....

I DONT HAVE A JOB!
*claps*
i dont have one TECHNICALLY anyway. im still working with the nonprofit i was at last summer but only when they need me.. which isnt very often let me tell you. so basically no job for me this summer.
im quite sure i jinxed myself though because when school was done all i could think was that i did NOT wanna have to wake up early and work as soon as i got home... and low and behold my wish was granted! there must be a genie in my head :P

but being the savvy new york girl i am im still getting some kind of money. at least for now. i did a flier for my friend who goes to school in chicago. i offered to do her the flier after she saw the work i did with my PR class and liked it. at first i thought i was just doing a friend a favor and i would be doing it for free. but NOPE! her boss wants to send me a check for 250 bucks. suhhhweet i must say.

ill put up some of the stuff that i made from that PR class for you guys to see.*

( click to see more :) )

I learned a lot but I busted my ass for this class, and I think it was one of the reasons why I had no desire to work this summer lolll.

guys i started writing this entry like 24 hours ago and im still writing it LOL. smh at my procrastination.

anyhoozle! since im not working, im thinking about volunteering so at least im doing something productive with my life. I kind of want to do something relative to my field but im not quite sure what to do yet. I need to start thinking hard about it soon though if i seriously want to do something before school starts again.

and speaking OF school, yes folks its that time of year again when i freak out about how im going to pay for school! once again i have no cosigner for my loans. seriously guys... fml.
but lets continue on.. becuase i dont like to think about that :)

in other news, im still “talking” to richie. i dont know what the fuck is going on there honestly. we arent going out but (excuse my language) we are fucking. and where does that lead us? ... nowhere. i 75% wanna completely stop talking to him.. or at least romantically. he has no motivation in life and i dont think i can deal with it. he has no job, he hasnt been in school for two years and it doesnt look like hes going back and he smokes weed every. single. day. its too much bumminess for me to handle. and on top of that my ex boyfriend vincent called me to tell me that him and his "wifey" had their baby. yay? how am i supposed to react to that kind of phone call? i dont hear from you in 5 months and u call to tell me that??? STICK A KNIFE IN A HEALING WOUND WHY DONT U?!

ahhh life. you keep giving me lemons. unfortunately im starting to hate lemonade.

good thing my new addiction to makeup helps me feel better about life LOL.

to take my mind of things, i think im gonna start planning my sororities retreat. i have to start soon anyway but at least it will be something to take my mind of more pressing things :) its my first duty as sisterhood chair so wish me luck!

so since my life is otherwise dull and i have nothing else to discuss, im off to read your lj's and catch up!
toodaloooo mothafuckaaas!!!!! :P

*thanks again to arde_elcorazon one of my lj friends who helped me figure some stuff out for my project and who wanted to see the finished products :)
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hey guys! longgg time noooo speak right?  sorry about that. life just got in the way of... life... if that makes any sense to u loll. i did manage to get two b+'s and three a's for my final semester grades though! woot woot! i acutally dont have time for a real update so instead i do a meme!

here's an sweeeet picture meme I stole from one of my besttt friends panik_attackk :)



( click for picturey goodness :) )( click for picturey goodness :) )woah that took forever lol. yah but thats all i have for now folks! feel free to steal my meme! id love to see it on some of ur journals. kbye!
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hey guys... so yeah i havent been on lj in a while. SOOOO MUCH CLASS/HOMEWORK. but i DO have something i would like to share! wanna know how my day went?











sorry for all the pics im kind of fuzzy on how to do lj cuts. but im also doing this in a hurry. to get to the point, there were two gunman on campus, two guys with automatic weapons held up two kids IN their dorm apt. there was swat, hartford police and campus police. and yet... they didnt catch the guys. fun no?! shit is fucked up for real. i had no idea what was going on and i heard that someone got shot but i dont know. all i know for sure now is that its really easy to get a gun on this campus *shudders*

one of my favoriteeee lj peeps beautifullymine had this in her journal today and i thought i would add it to mine! i have a few lj friends i feel like i dont know enough about so i would love for u guys to fill it outt!!!!! pretty please???! with sugar and icing and love on top? :)

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?
4. Add a picture so I can put a face to a name?

so i was just sitting around doing nothing.

and i got to thinking.

when it comes to postng in livejournal, although i dont do it as often as i'd like, when i do do it i never talk about things like my sorority in any kind of detail. and i wanna fix that. i'm trying to open up more on this journal, so i'm going to start talking about things i normally dont. i never really expalined how i got into sorority life and everything. i know you guys probably dont care all that much but i guess its more for me so i can look back on it when want lol. i want to have entries of the things that are important to me. and really the only reason im telling this story is because i think my experience is unique.
but anyways i guess i should start at the beginning

when i was a freshman i had wanted to join a sorority but there were a lot of things that stopped me. 1. no one wanted to do it with me 2. i had all these stereotypes in my head and i wasnt sure if it was for me (which in all acutality the stereotypes are true for a lot of the sororities on this campus) 3. and i couldnt make up my mind in time
so along with other factors i ended up not rushing.

i never really stopped thinking about it. but towards the end of sophmore year i sort of just gave up on the idea. before school ended that year a girl i had met at a couple parties told me about a group she was starting. turns out she was actually trying to start a brand new sorority chapter on campus. she along with a few other friends also wanted to rush but all of the sororities on campus seemed very... wrong i guess u could say. the girls in greek life arent the type of girls they wanted to associate with. so they thought that they could bring another aspect to greek life by adding a different sorority. for some reason they chose kappa kappa gamma, which i never really understood bc kkg had its own reputation (not GREAT thats all ill say.. it was okay but not GREAT) but i figured that a chapter could be still be completely different then its national name. so me and melissa started going to the meetings. at this point the girls in charge were just trying to get the chapter on campus. just in case you guys dont know it is NOT easy getting a new chapter unto a campus unless greek life is actually LOOKING for new chpaters. and of course on our campus they werent. it seemed as though all the sororities were completely against getting another group on campus and so becase of that any attempts we made to get our own chapter was blocked. this went on forrrr about a year and a half. while we were being led around in circles though, us girls that stuck it out and didnt drop out became closer. we were already in the sisterhood mentality so we all just kind of acted as though we were official sisters even though we didnt have an official chapter. we didnt wear letters or anything because trust me we would have gotten jumped, but we would do community serivce, go to events together, etc etc etc.

recently everything just came to a head. at the beginning of the semester we once again got completely shut down by greek life to bring kappa kappa gamma to campus. they put an official block on any new groups even though they told us they wouldnt. so we decided to start from scratch. except this time we were going to create a local hartford city sorority. instead of going through greek life to create the sorority we wanted so badly we went through other means. so we dropped the idea of kappa kappa gamma and picked up phi gamma, our new sorority. we are going through the process now to authorize it but as of right now we are actually an official sorority who can finally do our own thing. we did a dirty rush two nights ago and we have ten more girls. our group of thirty makes up phi gamma and im just happy that we actually have a group to call our own.

no one can take this away from us.

we came up with the following

COLORS
Violet and White

FLOWER
White violet

LETTERS
Phi Gamma ΦΓ

JEWEL
Tanzanite

MOTTO
Excellence through sisterhood

PHILANTHROPY
Reading is Fundamental

theres a lot more but those are just some of the superficial things that are coming off the top of my head. rituals and other things are also in the process. by spring break everything should be in order :)

the other sororities can say what they want, but we are here to stay. we are a group of girls who are different then the norm and we want to give girls a place in our group even if theyve been rejected by other sororites based on looks, money etc. the funny part is all of the fraternities are welcoming us with open arms, but the sororities are pushing back on the idea of our group with all their might. im not worried about them though. alpha epsilon phi (aephi) was just kicked off campus for doing drugs and hazing, and another sorority is about to suffer the same fate. girls should NOT be rushing for sororities like that. they need a group like ours.

and we're gonna give it to them.

so yes thats the story of my sorority and what we've been doing for the past two years to even get to this point.

i have a lot of other stories i wanna share with u guys just about things that make me who i am. so watch out for em!
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i have never ever done one of these but this one is too interesting to pass up. the one that i know i would DEFINITELY commit would be lust.
i really like sex.... a lot. im a bit promiscuous when the oppurtunities present themselves.
i would also probably commit envy. i'm always wanting something.
and the next would be gluttony. because i just eat way too effin much.

but yes. lust is definitely on the top of my list. the funnest sin in my opinion :)

hola my loves. nothing has been going on at all. hence my lack of updates. i actually feel like a really boring individual at the moment loll. but i did a 50 facts about me thing. i like the way it came out. i was very VERY honest. some of them are wierd, some of them are random, a couple could even be offensive. i hope i dont offend anyone tho lol. if you guys want id like to see you post your own facts about yourself! thatd be great!
so here we go :)

1. i lovelovelove the smell of pine sol. its a cleaning product in case u didnt know.

2. im double jointed... which makes me flexible even for a big girl ;P

3. i get ONE bad grade every semester. it's a curse i think.

4. i love foreign films.

5. magenta is my favorite color.

6. i used to have two birds and three fish when i was a kid. i cried when my birds died :(

7. i have multiple best friends and i love them all :) the wierd thing is a lot of my good friends have never met each other. i tend not to mix groups only because ive dealt with it before and things tend to get awkward and drama filled.

8. i grew apart from two people i never thought i would grow apart from.

9. im quite sure that i have an addiction to shopping and buying things... like really.. im not kidding...

10. the only countries ive ever been to outside of the u.s. is jamaica and canada. and thats only because i have a wholeee lot of family there.

11. i lived in montreal, canada for a year with my grandmother and aunts when i was four. or five?

12. after i moved back to brooklyn my mom told me i would only speak french. very odd considering how bad i am at languages now.

13. stew peas is my favorite food in the world and only my dad can make it right.

14. i like to surrond myself with overachievers.

15. because i surrond myself with overachievers, especially at school, i tend to know everything thats going on around campus. this feeds into my gossiping tendencies.

16. i dont really cry.

17. i. love. hip hop. i dont know what i would do without it.

18. i watch spongebob squarepants religiously. it's on now actually... i'll eventually get the spongebob dvd's.

19. i think ive deluded myself into thinking i can dance. oh well. ill dance anyway :)

20. i can be extrememly superficial. that should help me in the public relations field.

21. my gut feelings about an outcome in a situation always seem to come true. nikki thinks im psychic.

22. i really like cheese. a little too much i think.

23. im really self-conscious deep down. although i try not to show it.

24. i really like my big boobs.

25. im only twenty and im already 65,000 dollars in debt. yay?

26. oddly enough i dont really want to have kids of my own any time soon.. but i REALLY want to adopt.... maybe its a psychological thing.

27. i have one of the highest paying student job on campus (hourly).. and yet.. im still broke. *shrug*

28. i have wars with my neighbors... i always win :)

29. my worst habit is staying up late. its almost like i subconsciously refuseee to go to bed at a reasonable time. maybe its cuz i associate early bed times with old people. *shrug*

30. even if i can see that i might not do very well in a class i only ever think of droppin it or doing it as a pass/no pass class AFTER the deadline. happens every semester.

31. i like obama but but some people are making it seem like he's a god. its not that serious...

32. i havent been kissed in four months. this is likely to change in the near future... i think.

33. i have had five roomates in three years. in about a week i should be getting a sixth. next year i'll be getting a single.

34. i love going to basketball games. too much fun.

35. when im sick being in bed makes me feel worse for some odd reason.

36. i need glasses and braces. im going to look like such a fucking nerd.

37. i can never say no to ex's. its quite sad actually.

38. i love/hate the fact that im not thin.

39. my number one fear is death... just like half of america lol. i think about it A LOT. i think it holds me back from doing some things. on a side note, for a long time now i've always had this reallyyyy wierd feeling that i was going to die young. i dont know why i have this feeling but its been with me for so many years. it's quite scary :X

40. my number two fear is being alone my whole life even though i know it would never happen. but what can i say. some fears are irrational.

41. im not that great of a cook. but since i hear the way to a man's heart is food... i kind of want to learn.. for real.

42. i 100 percent think hair can either make or break an outfit or look. if the hair's a mess.. you're a mess. which is why i get so upset that i can't do my hair as often as i'd like.

43. i want my first tattoo to be a heart.

44. i dont have any piercings whatsoever. not even my ears.

45. i used to not wear pants, jewelry or make up. i used to not be able to listen to hip hop. i used to not be able to go the movies. all because of my parents religion. i still undeniably believe in God but im not the same religiously as i used to be.

46. i get really nervous around guys. so nervous i can physically FEEL every flaw i think i have. but the nervousness ends depending on the guy.

47. im scared that i wont be any good at public relations (my chosen career path).

48. even though im scared i'll fuck up my future i know my parents will help me in any way they can.

49. at any given time i could make up a whole list of things i have to do. this comes with being a slacker.

50. im actually very promiscuous. you wouldn't able to tell by just looking at me either. i just really like sex :X (hope that didnt offend anyone!)

havent update since before christmas but ive been a busy little bee! i hope everyone had themselves a good holiday. now the world can get back to normal and i can stop spending so much money loll. christmas was okay for me i got the sewing machine that i wanted, and electric toothbrush, guitar hero world tour and some timbaland boots from my daddy-o. i didnt really want anything this year besides my sewing machine (which im puttin to good use). everythign else i could have really wanted ive gotten yself over the past few months. but anyhoo! christmas dinner was good. better then thanksgiving actually.
new years was fun too. went to a party with brant and alyssa. it was full of zbt (frat) boys and their girlfriends loll. it wasnt the dopest party ive ever been too but it was alright. the host even proposed to his gf at midnight which was SOOO cute may i add. made me want a boytoy evennn more.
the days before, in between,and afer christmas and new years has been very hectic. but its been a lot of fun chillen with some of my closes friends in brooklyn.
OH YEAH. lets not foget a little thing i like to call my birthday. yupp on december 28th i turned 20. it was okay. i didnt do much on the actual DAY but my friends are taking meoutot lunch tomorrow and getting me drunk like a true alcoholic.
i gotta stop drinking so much.
u know its bad when ur getting drnk at 2 in teh afternoon loll.
but now that ive turned 20 i just wanna turn 21. as long as im gonna be an old fart id like to be an old fart who can legally drink please.
so far its been a good winter break and ive been really happy. the other day i sat on my friends roof (coughgothighcough) and watched the sun go down. it was pretty sweet. thats pretty much an example of how my breks been going. relaxation to the max.

or i WAS really relaxed until i found out i got an F in my of classes. yes an F. ive never gotten an F before in my LIFE. lets say thank u to mr. vodka for that. i fucked that class up so bad its not even funny. funny thing is i got A's and B's in all myother classes sooo.... yeah.
it happens every semester. one bad grade int he midst of four or five other awesome grades.
the problem is that that F fucks up my GPA and nwo i cant be active i my honor society. i think i should be okay in terms of my sorority but we'll see about that.
me=total failure
oh im also in massive amounts of personal and school related debt.
meh
im like a walking teenage (ahem young 20 year old) stereotype
i gotta get my shit together
and i gotta help my brother get his shit together for school too or else he want be going next semester either.
so much too do. so little time.
i really hope i do okay next semester. i cant fuck it up again.
and all my fin aid and stuff for school better go thru smoothly
and i wish i could stop looking at pictures of me and vincent
its not good for my psyche.
hes a douchebag to the fullest.

btw i got some new lj friends (hi! :P) and just some basic (some obvious) facts about moi!

name: danielle
age: 20 (duh)
residence: brooklyyyyyyyyyyn!
school: university of hartford (in connecticut)
year: junior
major: public relations and politics
screename:brooklyn2bound (feel free to IM me any time just let me know ur from lj first loll)
facebook: http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=1354530072&ref=profile
myspace: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=19877703
feel free to add me if u wish!

okay im seriously done now. hope u guys had a great start to 2009!
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christmas is proving to be difficult. im spending so much money its unbelievable. i seem to be doing the christmas shopping for my, dad, and my brother. none of them are able to do it themselves. plus im doing my own shopping for them. its christmas eve and in a few hours im going to the mall. THE MALL. of all places to go on christmas eve im going to the mall. i feel crazy for even thinkking about it loll. but it has to be done. i have the christmas spirit and all but im not feelin too cheery this year.

hm its been a while since i did a real update. last thing i really talked about was vincents crazy psycho bitch gf calling me up. umm not much to talk abouut with that. we are still broken up. hes still with the girl. only difference now is that shes pregnant. yup. pregnant. iii cant even go into it. its such a ridiculous story. all i can say is that he is an IDIOT. his llife is totally fukced now. even more then it was from before. theres no way in hell we could ever get back together. ugh. ill never understand what goes on in that fucking head of his.
this semester was okay. i didnt do as wellas i did last semester unfortunately. i actually got an F for one of my classes. i dont know y i got the F bc i only missed one paper. im gonna have ot talk to him soon about that. see wat happened. all my other classes are fine tho. A's and B's. every semster tho it seems as if i have ONE class that just FUCKS me over.
im so sick of it. i just want one semester that will give me A's and B's and thats it. bleh. im gonn ahve to retake a few classes. i need to graduate with a good GPA cuz theres that whole job thing i have to get after school lol.

right now im on christmas break. but i didnt bother to get a job. which means im strapped for cash. and this christmas shopping is just making it worse. and with christmas break comes myyyy birthdayyy. yeah im still thikning about that big twenty. not looking foward to it. i dont even think im gonna celebrate my bday loll. we'll see.

wow i started this entry early this mornign around 2 and fell asleep. time for me to go to the mall. hopefully i dont get trampled or anything loll. wish me luck!
have a great holiday! :)
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its been a while since the last update but life is overwhelming. this won't even be a legit update but i wanted to share something that i read about turning twenty. my birthday is in 14 days and then ill be twenty too. not sure how happy i am about that. but the following is exactly how i feel. enjoy :)

"Yesterday I turned 20.
I'm turning that number over in my head, trying to grasp the significance of it: no longer a teenager, not quite an adult. I don't feel any older than I did yesterday, but I can definitely sense a difference between this birthday and last year's. I'm a little more independent, a little less self-conscious, a lot more focused on my future.

Somehow breaking out of the teenage years and into a whole new age bracket -- the "20s" -- has made me feel as though I'm suddenly supposed to know, with absolute certainty, who I am and where I'm going.

I know, of course, that this thought is ridiculous. At the age of 20, I have barely begun to experience life. I have plenty of time to discover more about myself, my dreams and my ultimate goals.

But sometimes it doesn't feel that way. High school doesn't seem so far away, but at the same time a nagging voice in the back of my head tells me that graduate school and the "real world" are just around the corner. In two weeks, I will be halfway done with my college career -- halfway between childhood and the beginning of my adult life.

For now, I reside somewhere in between the two, able to make my own decisions and manage my personal life, but still dependent on others -- namely, my parents -- for support.

It is like a double life, this pull towards two different age groups. But in a way, I kind of like that feeling. It's nice to be old enough to have adults take me seriously, to put forth ideas and have others actually consider my opinions. It's sort of fun to spend my own money, feeling like I am breaking away from a lifelong dependence on my parents and taking responsibility for myself. I like setting my own schedule, making my own choices, wearing business suits on the way to interviews or important meetings.

But I can still pass for a kid. I love running outside with a Frisbee and a group of friends; laying out in the sun with my roommate and cheap fashion magazines; going to Durham Bulls baseball games with a worn-in mitt and a huge smile, ready for the pop-up into left field, the din of the stadium, the smell of the hot dog stand. I still call my mom almost every day, just to talk about school and boys and life and home. I have yet to master the art of wearing stiletto heels, always feeling a little bit like a young girl playing dress-up when I step -- okay, wobble -- into the hallway and down the stairs. I like watching Disney movies, getting sticky from the drip of cold ice cream on a hot summer day, running around in the grass barefoot and squealing as the mud sinks into my toes.

I don't completely want to be a member of either age group quite yet. I'd like to enjoy this time while it lasts -- still young enough to talk about what I want to do "when I grow up," and just old enough that planning for a career is realistic. It won't last forever, this duality, but I'm not rushing it. As much as I have always said that I couldn't wait to be independent, to be an adult, I'm content to be in-between.

For now, I'll be the 20-year-old in a business suit -- pants rolled up to my ankles and sandals for shoes as I walk home from an internship barefoot, enjoying the feel of the sun warming the pavement, loving the liberation of my feet from their high heels, and secure in the knowledge that at my apartment waits a pint of Ben & Jerry's and five 20-year-old roommates who can't wait to get outside and enjoy the last few hours of sun."

my feelings all summed up almost perfectly :) real update on mi life coming soon. in the meanwhile i hope everyone is doing okay!
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i miss the sun. i miss the heat. i miss summer. this cold weather is making me miserable. i just needed to say that :) a longer entry will come later after my massive politics test. le blah.

can i just say these two things?

1. i just read about a republican lawmaker who called obama the next hitler

2. palin is almost definitely running for president in 2012


in addition to all the other ridiculous things ive been hearing lately... these two just take the cake.

im currently missing enlgish right now. and i couldnt give a damn. actually i couldnt give a damn if i missed the next week of classes.. but thats besides the point.
its been too long since i updated last.. but i say that every time dont i? *shrug* it is what it is. i honestly have nothing new going on in my life since the last post. still no new boytoy. even tho my recent cut and perm seems to be attracting lots of male eyes. vicent is still always there on the fringe of my thoughts tho.

doesnt help that his girlfriend went crazy psycho for a second and called me to bitch me out...doesnt help that he continues to call me even after that...

but i think its safe to say im pretty much over it. i mean how can i not be? its been a while now and it would have started to get a little pathetic otherwise lol.

umm.. i maybe lost a little bit of weight? i could stand to lose a lot more but ill take what i can get.

really its all the same old thing. itll be like that till summer unfortunately.

im a junior and that means next year ill be a senior and then the year after that who knows where the hell ill be? jaci is going study abroad next semester so that means new suitemate for the rest of the year. kelly will be going abroad in the summer most likely and shell be graduating a semester early... another new suite mate for next year. and bizzle probably wont be living with us senior year because she might get herself an intership somewhere. off campus housing for herrrrr. so basically what it sounds like is senior year is going to blow major balls. then again there is always kappa. well im hoping. we are still just a colony type group.

can u tell my mood is blah right now? cuz it totally is =]

its blah even tho obama won. i really wont celebrate until he first proves himself to all the doubters.

but i am not not not not not gonna go into a political rant about it. its over and i honestly dont wanna hear about it at all for a while. that means avoiding cnn and the nytimes for at least a week or so. ill replace it with nickolodeon =]

i should be writing up a proposal right now for my next class butttttt i wanted to update instead so here i am!

what the hell else can i talk about?

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i cant wait for christmas break?

and i totally need a manicure and pedicure. like BAD.

i hope your all doing ok♥

till next time loveliesssss

Its officially happened. I finally really regret something. I regret ever contacting him again last year in the first place. I should have just left it alone.

oh and i was elected vice president of kappa kappa gamma last night. woopeyy.

just to see how things have changed in the past couple years :)

The old and new you - How much you've changed in one - two years.

Put yourself in your shoes, between 1 + 2 years ago + answer the following.


meme from a besty panik_attackk ! :)

What was your favourite brand..?: i didnt really have a fav brand. i had favorie STORES which was old navy and torrid.
Favourite clothing..?: i liked anything that looked nice and felt right. i was really into jeans and cute graphic t shirts too.
Favourite shop..?: like i said old navy and torrid!
Idol..?: i really looked up to a lot of my friends back home. they are all really pretty and really sociable and always seem to have their shit together loll. does that classify as an idol?
Word or Phrase..?: bitch and whore loll
Best Friend..?: if we are talking two years ago i would say taina, alysssa, nikki, laura, janay.. yeah ive always had more then one best friend loll
Close Friends..?: cassie, ashanti, asiah, natasha, freddy, charlette, vicotria.. umm i guess thats it?
Favourite Music..?: reggae and hip hop
Season..?: autumn
Events you were looking forward to..?: idk havin a good time in college?
Single or Taken..? If taken, who..?: well i was single until my second semester of freshman year and thennn vincent camee.. le sighh
Who did you fancy..?: HAAA ohh yeah i fancied jon... i dont know y but i did lolll
Personality..?: randomly awkward but mostly outgoin and crazy
Do anything you regret..? ummm i dont think i regretted anything i did.. haaa maybe getting drunk at 4 in the afternoon wasnt such a great idea lollll
Favourite Color..?: i think back then i liked red? i cant remember
Line Of Lyrics..?: howww would i remember that??
Movie..?: it was def moulin rouge loll
Tv Program..?: damn wat did i like back then?? umm i think my fav shows were like entourage and spongebob anddd gilmore girls!!
HairStyle..?: curly and crazy
DressStyle..?: with college i just dressed comfy so jeans and t shirts and sweaters?
Places you liked to hang out..?: wherever my fun friends were
How old were you..?: a year or 2 ago? 17,18
Place of Living..?: in brooklyn and then sometimes in connecticut
What did you want to be when you were older..?: journalist
What/who did you miss..?: when school started my friends back home. especially alyssa!! loll

Now fastforward until now and re-answer.

What is your favourite brand..?: like i said, i didnt really have a fav brand. i have fav stores which now happen to be torrid and i guess old navy. honestly i dont have a fav store anymore. no one has anything good anymore... at least not to fit these boobs!
Favourite item of clothing..?: nowww i love love love shorter skirts and dresses that arent too long and really pretty tops. not that im always dressing nice every day. while im at school i pretty much dress for comfort. i wear my jeans skirt all the time cuz its cute and comfy loll. no
Favourite shop..?: idkkkkkkk
Idol..?: still mostly my friends
Word or Phrase..?: whore and i curse a lot mroe lolll..
Best Friend..?: nikki, alyssa, taina
Close Friends..?: kelly, bizzle, taina, laura, ashanti... yeah school makes u drift from ppl unfortunately... leeee sighhhh
Favourite music..?: hip hop, rock
Season..?: summer
Events you are looking forward to..?: another kick ass internship and iii reallyyyyyyyy want to take a couple vacations out of the country. like one for spring break and one for the summer. i prolly wont be able to do it tho :(
Single or Taken..? If taken, who..?: i should say single.. but a certain someone wont let me make up my mind bleh
Who do you fancy..?: no one fancies me and i dont fancy no one.. BUT THERES THIS REAL CUTE KID IN MY COMMUNICATIONS CLASS!! ohh he sexyyyy.. but thats more like eye candy :)
What is your personality like..?: i think i actually got more shy when it comes to new ppl. which sucks a lot cuz i didnt used to be like that. and those random awkward moments i grew out of are coming back. i think im just psyching myself out? idk
Do anything you regret..? a couple things
Favourite Color..?: crimson pink.. oo i love it
Line Of Lyrics..?: right now im likin the across the universe lyrics "because the world is round it turns me onnnnnnnnnnn.. love is old love is new... love is all love is you.. because the sky is blue it makes me cryyyyyyyyyy,," it doesnt exactly go like that but im not gonna type out the whole verse. and its really more about how they sing it. ahh i love that movie. so many more good lyrics but i was listening to this particular one this morning soooo... :)
Movie..?: too many
Tv Program..?: greys anatomy, heroes, entourage, spongebob, gossip girls, americas next top model, house, greek. yeah i like a lot of shit loll. and i think im starting to like 90210 :) go figure
HairStyle..?: i still like it curly but its usually up bc i cant afford to get it doen every two weeks like i would need to
DressStyle..?: when im in brooklyn i try to dress real nice and stylish and when im at school i care a little less lolll
Places you like to hang out..?: whereever the peeps are at
How old are you now..?: 19 bitchhh
Place of Living..?: school dorm and with the fams in new york
What do you want to be when you are older..?: after the internship i had his summer i think i wanan do public relations maybe for a nonprofit compnay at first and then make the money at a big corporation. thats right im selling out to the "man" :)
What/who do you miss..?: my highschool bestiesss.. nikki.... alyssa and umm i guess my family?
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and can i jsut say both my classes for tomorrow were cancelled?! woohoooooo
and sorry about the whole no cut thing. for some reason i just cant seem to do it and im too lazy right now to stress it loll

i am going to fucking kill lindsey. this girlll... this girl. how do i explain this girl? she is one of the two new roomates that moved into my suite. my wonderful roomate is one of them and then theres kelly's roomate lindsey. lindsey annoys the SHIT out of me. she talks, walks and acts like a fuckin drugged out slut. she has her crazy ass ex and his crazy ass brother ringin our doorbell every minute bc she never made it clear to the kid that they actually broke up. shes goin out with another dood that is gonna be here every weekend sleepin who the fuck knows where. u can just TELL that this bitch has NO idea how to take care of herself. when she was going out with her ex he took care of everythign for her like she was a fucking baby. she doesnt clean up after herself, she cant seem to keep track of her shit, and she is very disrespectful in this apartment. and of course jaci is the one who invited her to live with us. kelly has talked to her and ive been patient so far but tonight broke the proverbial camels fuckin back. it is two in the morning right now and her crazy ass boyfriend RINGS our doorbell after him and his brother rang it all day long. TWO IN THE FUCKING MORNING. and where is lindsey all day? not dealin with this shit thats for fucking sure. instead shes at a hotel with her new boyfriend. fuckin stupid cunt. and the real clincher is her ex's brother DOESNT EVEN GO HERE. he lives in new york city. y the fuck is he always around ringing my fuckin doorbell like a psycho? i dont want to make this bitch cry but enuf is enuf. i will fucking make sure she un derstands that if this continues i will tell her ex and his brother that they should not and will not be rinigin the fuckin doorbell again. and i will be telling her to get her shit together or i am GOING to make things really hard for her. i am tired of bein nice to her. i know how to be blunt and i sure as hell know how to be a bitch. and if this shit does not stop ASAP i will be both.

my roomate is the complete opposite and thank god for that. its like i have a single. and when i do happen to see her there is never ever a problem.

i need to catch up on so much reading for classes. im not really enjoying many of my classes. their all basically really fucking boring. i have a couple i like but even then teh type of work we are doing takes away some of the enjoyment. i just need to figure out what the fuck im doing with myself and my major. i dont like not enjoying classes. fuck man.

vincent has a new girlfriend. and the bitch is ugly. so i guess its officially over. not like it wasnt before. its just sad cuz i didnt lose a bf i pretty much lost a best friend too. for some reason i dont really feel much tho. i guess im over it. its prolly gonna be a longgg time until i find another boyfriend tho. shrug.

i missed the premiere of greys anatomy on tv and it wont play for me online. great.

evidently richie wants to see me very badly. i guess it would be nice to talk to another guy just for a change.

i need another job badly bc the tutoring i signed up for is really trying to screw me over.

i should make a list of things i need to do but i dont want to have to deal with it.

i unfortunately have work tomorrow.. well today. i wish i could just sleep in.

idk guys i just feel indescribable right now.. but not in a good way. i feel like im missing something but i cant really put my finger on what.

i wish i had a guy to distract me. that used to be vincents job. sigh.

ummmm... guys. look at my icon.. that is NOT my icon. i signed into lj this morning and that is what i see. someone completely and totally hacked into my account. i signed out of lj with my boombox icon there and now this. yeah its really minor i guess and its not that big of a deal but what if they had decided to DELETE my account?! and not only that i talked to nikki and her lj icon was completely different too. and alyssa got a really wierd lj email telling her that she commented on a community.. which she never did. are wierd things going on with you lj too? changed icons? wierd emails? i wanna know!
and nowwww time to change my password.
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im back at school and its okay i guess. thigns still dont feel like theyve really started and im getting kind of sick from that feeling. i want to be busy. i NEED to be busy. it doesnt help that i dropped a class i shouldnt have added in the first place. so this is what im hoping to do. work at the bates house (admissions) two nights a week, work at the campus middle school three days a week, work at the campus theater sunday nights, and do community service sunday days. i wish i could have a sixth class but thats just not gonna work out this semester. i also need to declare my major and minor sometime soon. ahhh and lets not forget the clubs. i joined PRSSA (the public relations organization on campus). i write for the paper every two weeks, i do tours every week and im fundraising chair for kapa kappa gamma which is a lot of work this semester so we can come out of being a colony. sorry to bore you guys with my day to day routine but i wanted to write it all down so i could maybe clear my head. it kinda worked?

anywayyyyyy thats basically my life right now. no parties yet and basically no boys. nothin is goin on with vincent but then again i guess nothin major has been goin on with him for a while. i HAVE been talking to richie but nothin is goin down with that until i go home for break, and maybe nto even then.

i AM going to the gym four times a week though for like an hour with my suitemates. im quite proud of myself actually. its not like i DETEST the way i look but i was growing more and more unhappy with it. but i do like my curves lol.

im actually kind of homesick this semester. but i think its within the normal bounds that every student has. nothin serious. i am gonna go home and visit soon though so that maybe i can steal a little more N.Y summer. i have to do a post soon on what im calling my "summer of exploration" i never really explained to you guys how much of my city i actually SAW this summer and how much i tried to shake things up. im really gonna miss summer '08♥

oh and i spent like a 1000 dollars in like a day and a half. yuppp thats right nikki that shit is GONE (well mostly gone)! lolll. i knew it was gonna happen and i did pay my bills and bought my books b4 i started to spend so at least im not completely stupid. i had like 700 bucks to spend and if you REALLY think about it, thats not very much. at least in my twisted little head. i DID buy the ipod touch tho (for only 229!!!!) and i bought a camera. i wanted those two things alll summer and the only reason i didnt get them was bc i was tryna to be good. but im done trying to be good. i wanted them so i got them. i also bought a few more posters and SOME clothes but nto too many. really the camera and the itouch ate all the money up. i did want to buy rockband but that can wait. maybe i can even get it for cheaper if i wait for it longer. i also really want to subscribe to this political magazine called The Week. I find it absolutely fascinating, even if that makes me a loser lolll.

meh my period is starting soon and its making me feel kinda moody and down for real. sorry for the tmi :)

OH and the roomate situation is finally settled. im rooming with this girl who was born in ukraine and it basically feels like i have a single. i mean this girl is NEVER here. she hasnt slept her at night ONCE since schools tarted. and its been like three weeks. shes very nice when she is here tho loll. all i can say is yayyy for my double like single!!!

woww this post is long.. but informative!! if you count knowing all about my life as information loll. i hope all of you guys are doing well.

i also just want to mention 9-11. every year on this day i get really sad. u guys know why. i still cant believe it happened in my city of all places. my heart goes out to all those ppl who died and their families. i hope they're all in a better place. :(
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thank u all for not cutting me from your friends list. im just gonna have to deal with the fact that my lj moments come in big waves. and the fact that i like longer entries too much to just do short ones every day.

so summer is coming to an end. im excited to go back to school of course. but i was and still am really enjoying my summer vacation. even with work it was really fun and i think work may have had a little something to do with that. im calling this summer my summer of exploration cuz ive been to so many different places in new york that ive never even thought of going to. how is it that i live in new york city and i never went anywhere? i guess its true that ppl really do stick to the boroughs they live in. but anyway, all in all, i would call this a very successful summer :) the kind of summers i hate are the ones where i feel like i havnt done ANYTHING at all. i know vacation is all about relaxing but i wanna feel like i at least DID something you know?

the only thing im not happy about is the fact that i never really got to enjoy the money i earned this summer. i made over 2500 dollars and i maybe used 500 of it on myself. the rest went to all my different bills, especially my credit cards. and i ifeel like i havnt even really paid anything off. money sucks. for real.

the work for school is already starting and im not even there yet. im writing an article for the first issue of the newspaper. which is something i told myself i would never do bc of how everything went down last semester. looking back in my journal, i realize that i never told you guys what happened with the newspaper. you know how i was opinions editor for the paper last semester? and how excited i was that i thought that meant i would have a very good chance at being news editor? well lets just say the editor in chief is a bitch and she played favorites hardcore. and bc bizzle and kelly are desperate for her to like them they chose her favorites over me while apologizing to me over and over again. please. i was on the paper since the very beginning of freshman year and bc that editor in chief bitch didnt like me, i didnt get wat i deserved. everyone in that news office is fucked up and theres no way in hell i want to be a big part of it anymore. the only reason im still writing every once in a while is because i want newspaper clips to put in my resume. i was really mad at first about everything but then i thought about it rationally. 1. i never liked how the paper was more of a newsletter then an actual newspaper. we basically ran whatever the school told us to and we didnt report on anything real. 2. the people at the paper are not people i wanna deal with. talk about lameeeee. 3. my focus is switching from journalism to PR so not being on the paper gives me a chance to be in PR club.

theres more but thats enough about the paper.

hmm what else. oh i finally figured out everything with my loans. i hate dealing with loans cuz every summer its the same crap. i hate it i hate it i hate it. but i gotta do wat i gotta do i guess.

i thught i would have my dorm room to myself but obviously that didnt happen. the girl who is gonna move in looks kind of grungy... and its never a good thing when one person is just stuck in a dorm with ppl she doesnt know. that means either shes a loner or the ppl she knows didnt wanna live with her. i just hope shes not another sarah.. im trying to have a positive outlook about it and im hoping that maybe my roomate can become my friend. i need a break from the crappy roomates. so far nikki and sadie were the best roomates. i want another nikki!!!! blehh

and i guess i should update on vincent. basically its time for our bf/gf relationship to die bc we both know that in the long run its not gonna go ANYWHERE. i tried to be positive about it but its really not gonna work. but the problem is i wont be able to let go of hiim until i meet someone else. and i dont think im GOING to meet anyone else. i dont even know how i met HIM. ugh this sucks. i want a new person :(

all i know is that ill stop being so anxious once im back in school. at least i hope so.